06 February 2012

It's not all bad...

It has been an up and down couple of weeks.

The big Grand Opening for Bikram Fort Worth is this weekend. I will miss the festivities (not just because I'm not yet a member; I have to work anyway). Demonstrations, posture clinics, instructors from other studios, EVERYTHING I want to be a part of. I try not to think about it. I get depressed.

I will get back there.

The home studio idea is also on hold. Unexpected auto repair = $$$. Have yet to get a mirror for the spare room. It may be a bit. I bite my lip, take a breath and try to keep calm. I want to scream. I want to throw something. I want to gaze toward the heavens and ask, "Why?". Even now, I'm starting to shake. I never, EVER thought I would feel this way about yoga, let alone something like Bikram Yoga. I am still open to trying other types of yoga (the Sumits Yoga down the street has yet to open -- I will check it out; I've had no time to visit Karmany Yoga yet). However, I truly believe that I will end up sticking with Bikram.

I will get my practice restarted. I will learn about other forms of yoga.

When I am able to get the Bikram CD, I am also going to buy two three books:

Bikram Yoga -- the orange book

The Art of Happiness: A Handbook for Living -- by The Dalai Lama

The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali: The Book of the Spiritual Man -- by Charles Johnston

I want to better myself. I will tear myself down to the foundations if need be. My current self is no longer palatable or viable. I have much to learn. My happiness is not dependent on others. I must do it myself. I deserve this. 

It will get better.  

If I put in the effort, the results will come.

I want this. I need this.

"Begin, please."

Oh yeah, the title of this post? 

Well, I am proud to report that I have made it to 30 days since my last cigarette!! I need my inhaler less and less now. It feels good. No, it feels GREAT!!

Step by step.....



  1. Oh my gosh!!! CONGRATULATIONS, Mark!!! 30 days is amazing, good for you!!

    Have you seen time tables like this one: http://whyquit.com/whyquit/a_benefits_time_table.html

    I feel like they are really encouraging when quitting smoking. Let's see, you're 30 days cigarette-free... your heart attack risk is starting to drop, your circulations is improving, and so on :)

    Congratulations again!

    1. Thank you Simmm! I have seen similar articles. I still crave a smoke from time to time but the craving doesn't last as long. First step toward making a better me!

  2. Hey Mark! Sounds like you really love Bikram yoga. Have you asked your studio about a 'Karma Yoga' program? Some studios will let you man the front desk so to speak in exchange for discounted tuition. Congrats on your 30 day! Namaste.

    1. Kirsten: Thank you for reading and commenting! The studio was sold in October and the new owner does not currently have any type of program. Under the previous owners my Sweetie and I were part of their Work-study program. Yes, I love the yoga, and I cannot wait to resume! Peace.